Alright, I figure I should start this blog, now that its almost a full week since I signed up. This whole process is actually quite mortifying now that i am starting, and i have to say i am SO glad I did not choose a certain ex as "the enemy." Derek is not the enemy, but imagining giving him 400 bucks, probably on a day I have just argued with him about something MCM related, is enough to get me to the gym.
So, like a fricken genius, I signed up for this thing at Derek and Marian's place without weighing myself. Bad news for me is that I am 177 which is 2 pounds over the weight I thought I was, I am not sure, but I think this may actually be the fattest and heaviest I have ever been. In addition to hitting record fatness, It also means I actually have to lose 17 pounds to make it to my goal weight. Its alright though since my target weight doesnt change, no matter how fat I get, and I originally wanted to do 20 pounds but got scared that i couldnt do it.
Now, I'm pretty tall, and in general built lean, so I carry my weight pretty well. Which is a blessing because it means an extra 10lbs only looks like 5.... this is clearly bad because when losing weight losing 10lbs only looks like 5. If you dont believe me, just ask me what I weighed last summer (2007). No one seems to believe that I was 30 pounds lighter besides my parents but thats what i weighed. So I'm not crazy for wanting to lose 20, no matter what you say. This is also one of the many reasons i prefer to discuss my size in sizes, rather than in pounds, even though sizes are not very standardized.
Here's some visuals to help you understand that i need to lose a tremendous amount of weight to have any reasonable change in appearance.
Here I am at my ideal weight of around 147-150, in the early part of 2007 and into the summer:
This weight btw, is not the lightest I have been at my height, and not my favorite, but it seems to be what everyone thinks looks great and healthy. It is also, interestingly, the weight which i get the most male attention. Thinner than that gets me less attention. But thats another discussion altogether
Now I provide you with photos of me this summer (2007) and fall around 167-70:
It doesnt look so crazy, but trust me I could not even get a bunch of my pants from the previous summer ON-let alone closed. But of course since I am tall, It doesnt look so tragic, though i felt it was.
FINALLY
I bring you to today where I will show you one picture of me sulking in school while studying for finals, a few weeks ago and one picture of me dancing at a new years party a mere 10 days ago:
This needs to stop.
My goal right now is to get moving on this weightloss thing. Ideally I would lose 30 pounds overnight, but in order for it to stay off I've gotta go slow, so I will start with the halfway poingof 15 pounds, by June 1st, which means i just have to lose a little more than 3 pounds each month.
Also, my goal is not just to lose the weight, but also to increase my flexibility, gain a little muscle tone, deal with my problem areas i.e. the pouch/gunt/fupa and my amorphus ass that is kind of flat and kind of ugly.
I'm gonna weigh in every 2 weeks, and on the last day of each month.
P.S. There is no way in hell I am giving my money to Derek
