It has been a while.  A few things.  I am still at my start weight.  I had lost a little because of a good thing:

LENT!  I gave up sweets and it has been a lot easier than i thought!  but then the bad thing..

I have a boy who has been in my life for 4 years, romantically for 2.5.  The one problem is he goes to college 1600 miles away..  I plan on starting my career in Colorado whether he is there or not after I graduate and he lives there so we always have just said that we will live our lives now and the distance is just a test to see how much we care for eachother.  And if it is meant to be it will be and we can give it a shot when I live out in Colorado.

Life had been fine with us - skyping everyday, talking when we could, living our lives but still caring for eachother...

Until I went 24 hours without hearing from him...turns out he broke his neck from a hockey game...he got a slapshot to the neck and had been in the hospital with his family.  I was so upset - i couldnt eat and then I definitely could eat and I ate a lot.  I am fine now, I just wish I could be there. :(  But then again, I am not his girlfriend and I have exams this week... it all just hurts.   I may go out for spring break, but in some ways visiting and  having to say goodbye is harder than not because it is a huge tease.

Anyhow, please pray for him and his family! best of luck to everyone with their goals. it is getting warmer out!  Think of the positive :)

 I'm back!  With the effects of a recent heartbreak (and consequential ben and jerrys) I have decided to re join flaab and partayyy it up to lose the last 10 pounds that I have wanted to lose for a long time.  

Flaab legit has been the one way that I have found motivation without being judged by my family or friends and I am so excited to be back and to find the last bit of motivation that I need to get to my prime spring break condition!  I mean even though I will be in the frozen tundra of New England for spring break, at least I know I will be beach ready.

Plus!  I get to see and cheer on the rest of the wonderful folks here at Flaab!  Here is to everyone succeeding in their weight loss goals!

Cheers!

TODAY IS A GOOD DAY.  Today i made my goal.  From running, eating healthier and just taking care of myself, I have lost a total of 23 pounds since July.  

LOVE TO EVERYONE AT FLAAB.  I am debating doing one more to get the last 5 pounds that I have wanted so I can be my very best at 135.  I cannot even believed I just typed that.

Best of luck to everyone :) 

Yayyyy!  I am feeling better than I have ever felt before.  It was not easy - my first flaab I failed and this second one WILL be successful.

It is so nice to try on clothes from high school that I could not wear then because they are too small only to find that now I cannot wear them because they are too BIG.  

On another note, there is a song that I was listening to about 4 min ago and it was one of the cliche pop songs that all sound the same (which doesn't mean I like them any less) and the girl was singing about how she feels better and looks better without the man that was in her life.  Well along with losing the 20 pounds, I have lost the man in my life that my friends all told me to lose long ago.

I have NEVER felt better!  Cleaning out my closet and finally getting down to business and losing the weight has been just what my life needed.  Plus now whenever I see that guy around campus I just feel better about myself.  

I hope the same is happening to every other flaaber out there!  If it were not for this website I would still be 20 pounds heavier and not nearly as happy as I am now.  STAY STRONGGG!

Love love love,

Kayla

I love my university.  I love my major.  However, when I am required, yes, REQUIRED to make cookies as part of a three hour culinary lab, I am kind of stuck between love and hate.  

What college kid (actually, what person) does not like cookies?  EXACTLY.  EVERYONE LIKES COOKIES.  I AM REQUIRED TO MAKE THEM TODAY FOR A GRADE.

I am ok with this.  I realize that 7/8 of the kids at my university are "decrystallizing benzoic and salicylic acid" in lab while I get to make cookies.  I am lucky.  

Why cookies though.  I already promised to give most of them away to my friend and I am not having lunch because lab is at 1:25 and I will just eat cookies.  Or cookie dough.  Or chocolate chips.  Lovely.  

So I have 1 more day and 7 pounds to lose.  That will not happen.  Waterweight, perhaps?  I am not completely saddened because I still have lost a lot of weight and I am not done losing my weight :)  Also, my friend who I promised the 200 dollars too said he will give me half of it (now that I am a poor college student again).  I am sad that I did not meet my goal but I came so close!  

Alas, you shall see me again soon on this lovely website.  :)  I am not disheartened.

LOVE LOVE LOVE.

Moving.  This includes lifting millions of boxes, painting, running around Target and my storage center and before you know it, you lose a lot of weight.  I weighed in at 149!   I think I found the best form of exercise.  EVER.  You dont even notice you are getting a workout!

Fried seafood.  Icecream.  SO MUCH GOOD FOOD ON THE CAPE.

I had a lovely vacation with the family but even though I went on a run everyday and even though I tried to watch what I eat, it was so so hard.  I am going to have to run a few extra miles for this week to even TRY to get back on track.

I told my friend (who also gets the money if I dont win) and he said that I need to push myself and not get tempted in so i am going to do my best now.  It will be hard but I have left Cape [too much] Cod and am back home.  

here is to the next two weeks with pure concentration on dieting again :)

I like smoothies.  Not of the Jamba Juice persuasion which is basically sugar.  I like smoothies that are actually pseudo-ok for you to drink.  This is literally the most basic smoothie in the world but it filled me up more than usual and it is SO GOOD.

In a blender, put 1 or 2 peaches (or nectarines or plums or apricots i suppose) all cut into slices.

Add 1/4 cup of milk (or however much it takes to blend the peaches...some liquid is necessary) 

Add 2 (or however much you want) packets of splenda.

BLEND ALL OF THOSE until perfectly liquidy and then add 6 or 7 icecubes.  Blend again.

I figure a peach is anywhere from 60-80 calories (of the good sort too!) and the milk would be (depending on fat percentage) 25-40?

Honestly, so few calories and I literally felt fuller and it tastes SO good.  Especially now when peaches are in season.

Also, adding onto Emily's post earlier, why not add a bit of cinnamon into the mix!  Combined in I am sure it won't be too visible and as a natural appetite suppressant it can't hurt!

I fit into my high school prom dress again. :) 

You know those 100 calorie packs?  Yeah well so do I.  Most of them make me want to grab another in about 3 seconds.  100 calorie pringles, oreos etc.  HOWEVER there is one 100 calorie pack that I love.  

100 calorie Orville Redenbacher popcorn!  Popcorn is so good and after eating one of these cute little microwave bags full of the delicious popcorn goodness, I am not craving another bag! it is LOVe.

Everytime I come home from college, my dad gains weight.  He jokingly says it is my fault and well, it kind of is.  That is because when my sister and I are at college, he gets home late and eats cottage cheese for dinner - almost every day.  When I get home, he takes the time to let his amazing culinary skills show.  He will roast, toast, baste, grill, saute, boil, marinade, scramble, mix the best ingredients into masterful dinners.  

After being home for two months, he is tired of gaining the weight associated with me being home! SO he has opted for the weightloss route as well!

It is always easier trying to lose weight with someone you can confide in and someone you can discuss eating with.  Now, when my dad and I go shopping, no longer do I have to resist those little powdered sugar covered pecan cookies that he loves, no longer will I have to stay strong during trips to the wonderland that is Coldstone Creamery.  He is in it with me and it is so nice to not be alone - plus I am proud of him for wanting a change in his diet regimen.

Dieting, like most things in life, is better with someone you care about. 

The past few days have been great.  Lots of healthy eating and exercise.  I was pretty excited.

Except then HARRY POTTER HAD TO HAPPEN and of course that was followed by a lovely dinner out.  I did not feel  like going the good, healthy route so I didn't.  

I have done this before and I am always guilt stricken afterward, kind of how I feel now.  I am sure the rest of the world can relate.  

How do different people deal with their guilt of succumbing to a food craving? Or for those miracle people that never do succumb, HOW? 

I hope everyone's week is going well :)

TODAY WAS MY BEST FRIENDS BIRTHDAY PARTY! It was a complete success on my end :)

They had pasta salads, potato salads, burgers, hot dogs etc and icecream cake.  I resisted the cake but had a burger for dinner.  It was pretty successful considering icecream is my favorite thing in the world.

In other news, my dad has a giant box of chocolate covered macadamia nuts that, for some reason, ever since i told him I want to lose weight, he took the box out and left it on the coffee table and 1. he wont eat the chocolate 2. he wont move it or he puts it back on the table.

I was so angry...soo angry.  The great thing though, is that after three days of resisting those chocolates, I am totally over it!  I wanted one so badly but I said no and now there is no temptation.  It is great :)

It has been a good first few days and I can only hope that everyone else is having good luck!  Have a good start to the week!

Kayla

My dad requested I make banana bread.  Chocolate chip, pecan banana bread.  BAD DECISION.  Anyone have any ideas how I can get him to eat the entire thing today so the temptation is gone??

:( 

Today is for once, a beautiful sunny warm day! Perfect for the pool, except when I went to turn the heater on I think it might have internally exploded (dont ask).

Anyhow.  I started my day by reading a journal i wrote last night about what to eat for the day - lovely!  Those Light n Fit yogurts are such a fab treat for 80 calories.  

So here is to my first day in the Flaab world! I am going to try to convince my mom that if i lose the weight, she will seriously consider giving me her beetle convertible instead of selling it.  It is a stretch but that would be SERIOUS motivation :)

best of luck to everyone! I hope it is as lovely a day as it is here